Gahh.

Are you studying to graduate or am I the one studying for you? Geez. Stop expecting me to SOLVE every question of yours just because you NEVER study and STOP LEECHING OFF ME.

Really, though. I'm sick and tired of all this.


Here I am, spending days on end trying to simply understand study materials and for goodness' sake, I'm losing sleep because of my work.

And here you go, expecting me to just give you my solutions just like that because you never bother study? And on top of that, you're just complaining about how hard things are and don't even force yourself to endure the same crap that I've been putting myself through just to get things done?

And the worst part, stop bombarding me with questions every five minutes, for goodness' sake. I have work to do. And I go to uni for the sole purpose of doing what? Getting my work done.


Seriously man, rack off. I ain't superman. And the purpose of my existence certainly isn't to solely push you through uni and pick up after your dirty scraps.

A simple thought.

Prayer of a broken heart:
Lord, if I'm not the one for her, please let it be someone who can provide for her better than I do.

The Eucharist - A Brief Introspect.

Okay, so I've got to admit that I've pretty much fallen in love with the Catholic faith over the past few months, and there has been a stunning transformation in my life over the season of Lent. So many new things have been learned, friendships strengthened, discoveries made... and the list goes on.

However, I have to admit that the key point to the change in my life was the near-daily attendance of the Mass. Day-by-day, I have been receiving the Eucharist and been strengthened beyond measure, and my spiritual hunger satisfied.

Whilst on the way to Mass today, I thought about the general preconception of those who go for Mass daily.

Come on, let's face it. In our circles (or mine at least), there has been at least one person who attends Mass daily. And that person usually is so full of love and is strong in his/her faith. In fact, a lot of these people often leave others in awe. Their faithfulness, charity and the ability to love beyond all circumstances have stunned people throughout the ages.

Take a look at the Blessed Pope John Paul II. He was shot four times and yet he forgave that person who attempted to murder him. And again, at Mother Teresa. When asked where she got the strength to do what she does, she would refer to the Eucharist.

Through the ages, the Eucharist has been the source and summit of the Christian faith, even from its inception in the early Church.  Saints, Doctors of the Church and many other influential people have talked about the Eucharist as the source of Love, Hope and Joy, and how it makes us more than what we are.

Take this quote from St. Francis de Sales for example:

"When you have received Him, stir up your heart to do Him homage; speak to Him about your spiritual life, gazing upon Him in your soul where He is present for your happiness; welcome Him as warmly as possible, and behave outwardly in such a way that your actions may give proof to all of His Presence."

In fact, when we look at the Catholic doctrine of the real presence, that Jesus really is present in the Eucharist, in Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity as a whole, we get to see the significance of this.

Ever heard of the term "You are what you eat"?

Bingo. Mystery solved.

Then I came to one realisation.

"Going for Mass daily doesn't show how spiritually strong we are - it just shows how weak we really are and how much we are in need of Him."

A series.

Throughout the past few months, I have been very much unclear about what topics my posts here will revolve around. And I've been putting a lot of thought into all the various things what seemed like potential candidates: Humorous daily events, ramblings about how badly my day went, nonsensical 9gag material, inspirational material... and the list goes on.

However.

It has also been throughout the past few months that my thoughts have been directed more and more to the other spectrum - the study of life and its constituents. 

I've been thinking a lot about how the world works, slowly trying to unravel the thoughts and nature of the human mind and its battle with God - a self-made psychologist without any formal training. 

From this day onwards, this blog shall be a "thought blog", which catalogues my thoughts for the day, my encounters with people around me and my growth of Faith, which I must say, has spurred me on towards taking this step of asking questions and giving (attempted) answers at what may be occurring in our world. An online journal, so to speak - a collection of thoughts by which discussions may be made and the fear of my clumsy, disorganised self losing a physical journal being thrown out the window (or laying around on the ground, pun intended).

All this will probably serve as the one outlet where my serious thoughts (and some nonsensical nonsense) shall be let loose! I'll take it as balancing out my daily lame-ness and playful self.